April 7th 2018
I’ve been wanting to paint a temple for a while now. I finished this piece a couple days ago, and this particular painting will go in our Relief society room in our church. But I want to paint another one similar for our home. I love how it reminded me the whole time to truly ponder my goals. And my ultimate goal is to make it to the Celestial kingdom to dwell with God the Father, Jesus Christ and our families. Willow just got that, she understood the plan. And maybe she just needed to get a body to fulfill her part. So for us we need to always be worthy to enter the Temple, so we can be worthy to stand before God at the last day. The temple has always held a special place in my heart, but after Willow went to live with Jesus, it has become an even larger part of my life. I’m so grateful Jon and I are sealed by the power of God as an Eternal family, and that Willow was born into that covenant. Because of this she is a part of our family unit forever. I can’t wait to hug and kiss on her everyday and NEVER have to let her go, not again.
How is it 11 months already? #WillowRubyWilliams
I’ve been wanting to paint a temple for a while now. I finished this piece a couple days ago, and this particular painting will go in our Relief society room in our church. But I want to paint another one similar for our home. I love how it reminded me the whole time to truly ponder my goals. And my ultimate goal is to make it to the Celestial kingdom to dwell with God the Father, Jesus Christ and our families. Willow just got that, she understood the plan. And maybe she just needed to get a body to fulfill her part. So for us we need to always be worthy to enter the Temple, so we can be worthy to stand before God at the last day. The temple has always held a special place in my heart, but after Willow went to live with Jesus, it has become an even larger part of my life. I’m so grateful Jon and I are sealed by the power of God as an Eternal family, and that Willow was born into that covenant. Because of this she is a part of our family unit forever. I can’t wait to hug and kiss on her everyday and NEVER have to let her go, not again.
The last day we spent in the hospital we did one of the hardest things we ever had to do. And that was say goodbye to our little girl’s body- I say her body because her spirit was still very tangibly with us. We just wanted to hold her forever and ever and never let her go… it’s cruel to parents really, having to give up what they’ve been waiting 9 whole months to finally hold in their arms. We stared at her for hours trying to memorize everything about her cute little face... Gosh it's hard just thinking about it all again. Finally saying the words that they could take her perfect little body away and we’d never see it again. That they could transport it all alone to the lab for testing.. Testing that never gave us any answers.
Now I thank God every. single. day. that we get to spend Eternity with her and see her smile at us and finally know if she has one or two dimples, what color her eyes are, what her laugh sounds like. I hope she laugh cries like her dad lol. It’s so funny when he really gets going
😂 I hope she has my eyes, but his contagious smile and sense of humor.
Gosh, i can’t wait for that day
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Now I thank God every. single. day. that we get to spend Eternity with her and see her smile at us and finally know if she has one or two dimples, what color her eyes are, what her laugh sounds like. I hope she laugh cries like her dad lol. It’s so funny when he really gets going
😂 I hope she has my eyes, but his contagious smile and sense of humor.Gosh, i can’t wait for that day
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Anyway, the past 11 months I have sort of been searching. Searching for a purpose for my life. I had the whole year planned out, stay at home with baby, be a mom. That was the plan. Then those plans were radically changed. It’s been hard not only missing her all day everyday, but also trying to find my place in this world again. This world that feels so foreign without her in it... I find peace when I set my sights on Eternal goals. Mortal goals are nice to help me stay busy, distracted, and progressing. But it’s the Eternal truths that bring peace, and breathe life back into me. When you gaze into eternity, the ache in your heart, pit in your stomach, or lump in your throat seem far less significant and encompassing.
Having Easter and Conference on the same day this year was really special, it helped me focus on the resurrection of our Savior and how God’s plan is perfect. We will all be reunited together in the end. That glorious day can’t come soon enough 
We love you Willow, XOXO
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