September 7th 2017

Happy 4 months Willow 🌿

Since the day I found out we'd be having a baby I wanted this cute series of photos... when we lost Willow I didn't think I'd ever have them. Last night I decided that although I didn't have a photo of her at home with me on the bed, didn't mean I couldn't still have that cute series completed. 

"Lord, we know there is nothing that we have that we obtained on our own. It’s all Yours. Help us to have open hands for You to give AND TAKE as You please. Increase our faith." - unknown 

It's funny, when you get pregnant you assume the sole responsibility to take care of this new human being. You talk about how you'll keep them safe, away from the hurt and heartache of the world. But they're not truly your own. They're simply on a loan. You may be sealed for eternity, and the blessings from that knowledge is what brings me peace in the hardest of hours. But they're still not yours, you don't have the power to protect them from everything no matter how hard you try. Sometimes you're forced to give up your own will for the will of God. Sometimes things just. happen. 

And when those things do just happen, you thank the Lord for the time He gave you with them. It could have been shorter..

It's true what they say, you plan a lifetime with someone when you can't guarantee you'll have tomorrow. 

So live for today, tell your loved ones how much they mean to you. Kiss your kids goodnight and give them extra hugs or read that extra book they're begging for. Forgive that person who hurt you so bad you thought you'd never be the same again. Find peace within yourself and learn to be happy in your own skin and not rely on others to bring you joy. 

Your plan may not be perfect, but His is. Find peace in your faith. 

Jon Williams
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