May 12th 2017

In case you're wondering what life looks like for us these days... we have a lot of this ☝🏼 going on. Dad studying, mom writing, and lazy pigs cuddling. When I think of people after they've had a loss like ours I just assume they're lying in bed all day crying in the dark... and honestly, I could be doing that SO easily... if it were only me I could wallow in self pity and be swallowed up in the depths of despair... and if it were only me, that would probably happen. But I have such a strong husband next to me, an incredible mom who took this sweet picture, SO many family members and friends praying for us and sending sweet messages along with flowers, meals, and of course chocolate 😉 I also have a rock solid faith in my Savior Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father that is there to catch me when I start allowing questions like "what if I would have..." enter my mind. That's the hardest thing, feeling like blame needs a home and because she died inside of me am I the home of blame? No, I can't even let myself go there. I know God makes no mistakes, this happened because it needed to. Not because it was an accident. I may never know "why" but I don't need to... the autopsy results will be back within a few weeks and even if it doesn't answer any questions I'm still at peace knowing her death was orchestrated by the divine Creator. XOXO Willow, Mama loves you 🌹♥️👼🏼
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